Pages

Labels

Popular Posts

Blogger templates

Yang Safia On Tuesday, July 2, 2013
So I'm finally addressing the issue here. If you haven't noticed, this blog has been quite quiet this year and I really do apologize. My life has been a roller coaster so far and it keeps on changing and sometimes, it is quite hard to keep up with it. That's adulthood (?) for you. I have a new set of worries now, a new set of people that I care about and a new set of goals. I really don't think I'm the same Yang Safia six months ago on my graduation or the same Yang 3 months ago when I started my internship at Teach For Malaysia. While I do plan to revolve this post around what I have discovered throughout my 3-month stint at TFM, I kind of want to explore what life has generally revealed itself to me.

You see, I go through an existential crisis quite often especially now that I am no longer a student. While I think I fared quite well compared to other people since I have a plan; the question of your purpose in this world can never escape you. I don't work well with uncertainties so what usually happens is I get angry. I get so angry for a period of time until I manage to get something rolling. I'm not a person to mull over things for a long time because I like decisions...decisions that are followed with actions. But sometimes you know good things just come to those who wait. You gotta let the pie bake before you take it out of the oven. And I suck at that. I just hate waiting.

The past 3 months at Teach For Malaysia was a blur and I was pretty much out there doing stuff that I know I needed to do. I didn't have much time to think about my existence and its purpose. However towards the end of it, I hit a HUGE wall that drove me back into an EC. The internship allowed me to visit some high need schools in Malaysia and that opened my eyes about my country. I realized that I've been living in a bubble (a pretty bubble at that) all my life. Now I won't be too hard on myself but the experience really made me question my purpose in life. For one, I'm not sure whether I want to be involved in theatre anymore. I'm not sure if I want to direct even. And now I'm more gung-ho than ever to work on my Masters and Phd so that I can fully teach. But what resulted out of that is a confused person who felt that she lost a bit of herself.

So now here I am, more resolved that ever to not be as selfish as I was before. I view theatre as a selfish endeavour for myself and while I can (and many theatre people will argue) say that theatre can impact society and create change, I'm starting to question its practicality. 

But now I'm confused. 



It seems to me at this point I want to give and help people with something practical like quality education but in that process I've given up on theatre; one of my greater passions. Won't I lose a part of my identity? Won't I cease to exist if I give up my identity for the greater good? Then that would be a true existential crisis wouldn't it?

Sigh.

Anyway I thought I had shit figured out before I wrote this post but I ended up more confused that ever. I'm not looking for signs or answers right now. I don't need people telling me what to do. I just want to sit this one out and let it come to me naturally. I'm just going to go with the original plan (maybe with a few tweaks here and there) and regain back my focus. I need to get my mojo back. 

REAL LIFE UPDATE: 

I'm on a 3-month holiday before my Fellowship starts. I'm determined to get some major R&R but it has only been my 2nd day and I'm already losing my marbles. Haha. Clearly the idle and domestic life is not for me. 

This blog will surely be buzzin now that I have more time! I've got some old and overdue projects in the works so look out for those! :D
Yang Safia On
It's been a long while. Hello. I'm not going to waste time explaining why I've been absent as of late so I'm just going to jump right into it. (Man it feels so good to write....so good!)

Throughout my internship at Teach For Malaysia, I actually volunteered to work at Kuala Lumpur Performing Arts Centre on weekends. I helped Mark De Silva, a Malaysian playwright, with his children cast over the weekends. Long story short, I ended helping him manage the kids' section of the performance for the Child Aid Asia (CAA) event in late May.

CAA is an annual charity event where all proceeds will go to an Arts scholarship for underprivileged children. It is a collaboration between Japan, Malaysia and Singapore so naturally, all performers are from those 3 countries. It was Malaysia's turn to host CAA so they had it at KLPAC.

Aside from my experiences in New Zealand, I've never been a part of a professional production before. So it was a huge honour to just observe everything and helped out in any way I can.

One of the biggest highlights for me was definitely meeting Dato Faridah Merican, a Malaysian theatre icon. I introduced myself and we talked for a bit. A woman with a strong presence, I hope one day I can be like her. Or better. :D

The Actor's Studio Children Ensemble. Incredibly talented kids!


Warm up session before the rehearsal.





The Set Up











Yang Safia On Sunday, June 9, 2013
I'm feeling very juvenile for posting these up but I don't care!! I've been perusing tumblr for hours because of these two. Those moments when you see me snickering like a weirdo at my phone, you can bet that I'm stalking these two! (My life is not that exciting I realize.)

I don't want to suffer from intense feels by posting endless pictures of these two so I'm just going to stick with one each. x_x


Zachary Quinto




Benedict Cumberbatch


I turned 23 the other day and I see no changes in my fangirling tendencies. YESSSSSS!
Yang Safia On Thursday, June 6, 2013
How cute are they? Massive shout outs to Yin Li, Adam and Shafiq!!!




Thank you everyone! :D
Yang Safia On Sunday, May 26, 2013

Synopsis (taken from Goodreads.com):

Enigmatic and sexy, Professor Gabriel Emerson is a well respected Dante specialist by day, but by night he devotes himself to an uninhibited life of pleasure. He uses his notorious good looks and sophisticated charm to gratify his every whim, but is secretly tortured by his dark past and consumed by the profound belief that he is beyond all hope of redemption. When the sweet and innocent Julia Mitchell enrolls as his graduate student, his attraction and mysterious connection to her not only jeopardizes his career, but sends him on a journey in which his past and his present collide. An intriguing and sinful exploration of seduction, forbidden love and redemption, "Gabriel's Inferno" is a captivating and wildly passionate tale of one man's escape from his own personal hell as he tries to earn the impossible...forgiveness and love.


Structure:

I expected this book to be a comparison to Fifty Shades of Grey so I did not think of it much when I started reading it. It could be the hormones or weariness on my part but I soon find myself hooked on the plot. While I cringed at the writing at times (the author's blatant statements got me snickering here and there too), the plot compensates that flaw. Dispelling my initial thoughts on Gabriel's Inferno, the novel has a tangible plot that made sense.

While it is not the best written romance out there, the plot of GI made this book a worthwhile read. It is not ridden with crazy and constant sex, where we often associate with the likes of Fifty Shades, which salvaged the whole book in my opinion. I won't reveal the details but Reynard goes for the extreme. What he will reveal about Gabriel will shock you because you would not expect him to not go there. It made sense though, I must give him that.

I admit I had my "Are you freaking kidding me" moments when I read the book but if you just go with the flow, you won't be entirely disappointed. Keep your judgements and GI will prove to be a gem.

Character:

Julia is your typical virgin maiden. Nothing special about her except her troubled past. Not an entirely annoying character which I appreciate.

Gabriel Emerson puts Christian Grey to shame. Hell, maybe I should just say that Reynard (for being a guy) puts E.L James (a woman, if you didn't know) to shame. While they are both writing different focused topics, they both have heroes that are similar--Reynard illustrates how a man should treat a woman better than E.L James ever could through Gabriel. Despite being trapped by dark past, Gabriel shows repentance by treating Julia with respect rather than Christian who forced his problems and habits onto what's-her-face. So Team Emerson all the way!

Issues:

I'm sure other readers notice this as well but Gabriel's insistence on calling Julia, "Julianne" is unnerving. I don't understand why would any girl would want her man to call her by some other name. And may I point out that the other name is so similar to her real name that I would automatically assume that Gabriel is delusional or on crack. *grin*

Secondly, some of the romantic scenes in this book are so....sappy and lame. The lovers's romantic exchanges in Italian and English are borderline Malay soap opera corny. I find Reynard's romantic instincts a bit off the point but I do hope it gets better in the later books.

Gabriel and Julia are that obnoxious couple that you hate at your friend's dinner party. While it is healthy to be interested or obsessed in the fine arts, Reynard makes the lovers appear obnoxious when they recite their Italian sonnets to each other. In real life I wouldn't want to be around a couple who drop Italian references upon commenting on their food at dinner!

Si odieux! (I know it's French...)


Rating:

Overall Rating: 3/5
Obsession Rating: 4.5/5

Yang Safia On Saturday, May 18, 2013
My days have been mundane lately. Nothing interesting to report aside from the fact that I love what I'm doing right now. So I'd like to share what I've been loving these past weeks which made my days a little bit more interesting!

Favourite Food:


Subway Salads: I realized that it is actually quite hard to get a salad to-go in Malaysia. And they are so expensive for something that requires so little effort in preparing it. So my usual go to is Subway! I know you salad critics would cringe at my choice but this is the most readily available salad to me. Even then, it's kind of hard for me to procure it! 


Boost Drinks: SO.GOOD! A perfect pick me up when I feel particularly stressed out or tired. I've been really into healthy smoothies or organic tonic drinks thanks to Itsjudyslife.

I know what you're thinking, why so healthy? You're in Malaysia, one of the best food hubs in the world and why are you not indulging in those foods? First off, believe me I do indulge. But since late last year, I've taken a vow to eat more healthily because honestly, I feel like my body is starting to take its toll. Every time I eat that Mee Goreng Mamak, my body started to react badly . I feel nauseous and sick. And that gets me in a bad mood. I realized that at 22 (going on 23), there is seriously something wrong with my health if my body can't even handle my favourite food anymore. Hence the decision. 

Favourite Book:

I've been on a reading binge with the Vampire Academy Series but I needed a break so I picked up a book that I'm a bit embarrassed of...


Gabriel's Inferno by Sylvain Reynard

I chose this international cover instead because the standard one is a bit too risqué for this blog. The writing is so bad but I have to say it is better than Fifty Shades of Grey. And what's interesting is that it is written by a man. Full review once I'm done with this book!

Favourite Anime:

Shingeki No Kyojin

So good. So bloody. So emotional. I would go as far as saying that this is probably the best anime of 2013. The plot is full of twists that by episode 5, I literally have no idea what will happen next. The characters are interesting but I suggest not to get too attached because you really can't expect who would die next.

Favourite Makeup/Skincare:


My Beauty Diary Masks

My skin has been looking dull and tired to the point that I get annoyed when my colleagues would often ask if I was okay. So I decided to take matters into my own hands and reached for this product. While my skin could have been a lot better if I take my collagen drinks every day like I used to, I simply don't have the time now. So before I go to bed every night, I would put this mask on and go to bed relaxed. The next morning, my skin is perfect and glowy that it makes putting on make up a lot easier. And best part, my colleagues stopped asking! 

Yang Safia On Monday, May 6, 2013



































My next post should have some swanky new content. That I promise. But for now, I just need to figure out what it's about. =_=