This day taught me something...the power of putting things in perspective. For some of you who know me, this year is a big year for me. I have two major goals for 2011; to get into Honours and direct a kick ass theatre production. Trying to balance these two proved to be a challenge but I'm proud to say that at this point, things have been going well for me.
Now that's not entirely true but I managed to put into perspective you see; things ARE going well.
I had an early class that day. I had to continue the second half of my microteaching during tutorial and it didn't go that well. Not up to my expectation anyway. I felt a bit bummed but I insisted that my day is going to be fine. Besides, I'm meeting the Otago polytech people about my gig as a volunteer tutor later that day. Things are going to be fine, I assured myself.
I had a two hour break so I (actually O_O) stayed at the library to work on my essay draft. It went alright but I still think I need to draft a better version later. I got bored and the microteaching thing still bugs me. So I decided to take some pictures.
If you're an Otago student, you will usually find me at the literature section on the 3rd floor at Central Library. I think the architecture is amazing. So modern. This is a view from my seat btw.
My draft. As you can see, it's not going so well. I barely had any idea what to put in the essay and it is due in a week.
My pretend stressed face
Rows of literature books. My idea of heaven.
If I turn to my right, this is what I see
About 2 hours later, I went to my tutorial. Despite the crappy start of my day I had a very interesting tutorial. In fact, it sort of made my day.
Afterwards I went to meet up Adeline for lunch and basically I poured my heart out about the list of things that are worrying me about my goals. Some parts of the production is killing me with worry and I have so many assignments due before and after Easter. Yeah, a pretty chill talk over lunch. Before I know it, I had to rush to my interview with the Polytech people.
Now this was crazy. I literally ran from town and all the way to Polytech. Despite the cold weather, I was sweating like crazy. And when I got there, straight on the dot...I was greeted with disappointing news. Apparently the lady sent me an email claiming that they had changed the tutorial times to morning. They figured I couldn't make for the job seeing I have to attend classes (which is true). I was really disappointed and the fact that they "emailed" me during class hours on the day itself was stupid. SO pretty much I just ran halfway through Dunedin (hiperbole) and they freaking cancelled on me. At this point, I was still trying to catch my breath.
It took me nearly 20 minutes of running to get to Polytech and I'm out within 3 minutes.
I was disappointed. Frustrated. Worried. Tired. Nervous.
Actually I was really tired of walking so I decided to take a short rest in front of St David. What made me rest was what is engraved on this monument.
Take time. Rest.
Something along those words lah.
That night I did research on my assignment and studied for my upcoming test
That day didn't go very well for me. But I've managed to put things into perspective.a) Microteaching: It's okay that it didn't go well. It was my first time teaching. SO what the heck, I can't expect things to go super well. If it did, alhamdulillah but I'm still a student. I need to learn. Besides, it's not like I failed.
b) It's okay that I didn't get to do the tutoring job. Maybe it's a way of Allah trying to tell me that I have other things to focus on and maybe tutoring is not the focus now. Besides, I'm busy with theatre and studies.
c) It's okay that I was super tired from the run. At least I managed to get some exercise.
d) Despite my shortcomings, I'm living a great life right now. I'm living in an awesome country, majoring in what I'm passionate about, surrounded by good people, losing weight and get the opportunity to direct a full theatre production!
e) I'm studying hard and it's fine that I have so many things due. I'm working towards Honours year! And so far, my results have been kick ass. I just have to work harder from now on and manage my time properly!
f) It's fine that I'm constantly worried about my production. But I have to take things one at a time. It's normal to have problems. Adat la tu. Besides, you can't rush art. ;P
This bad day turned out to be an excellent day after all. I managed to learn how to put things into perspective!
Later that weekend, I attended one of the choir practices for my production. I managed to get a little snippet of the practice.
They're practising on Anuar Zain's Lelaki Ini intro.
Bismillahirrahmanirahim. Please let things fall into place eventually. Pretty please. :)
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